Friday, July 23, 2010 ; 3:35 AM
"一笑而过
有时候，我们不用在意别人的看法.
因为它们不是我们,
他们不了解我们.
只要我们问心无愧,
没做出对不起他们的事,
那我们有什么好怕的呢?
他们不了解你是他们的损失,
我相信你的周围还有跟多值得你去珍惜的朋友"
i'm nothing without you.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010 ; 3:39 AM
What's coming up next? Family also like that.... friends also like that.... What's with everybody? Or is it just me? I already have so much things in my heart... So much troubles.... Yet more and more troubles are piling in... I can't settle all these problems.... There aren't anyone to help me out... I'm all ALONE. Everyday is just almost the same... I have to go face people that i don't like... I have to endure all the insults.... I have to hold back... I can't resist back at all.... My anger is just growing and growing each day... I can't find a way to let it off without hurting others.... There's no one that can help me.... No one really cares about what happens to me.... This morning i was playing with my friend and he slipped and fall... It wasn't on purpose... but yet my friends all blame me for it.... They way they said was like i did it on purpose... They don't trust me at all.... No matter how i explain to them... they just won't believe.... I really got a question to ask them..... Who am i to you all? a friend of yours? your enemy? a stranger? or a toy that lets you do whatever you like... I really don't know what to do now.... My life wasn't like this before... I always thought school would be a place where i can escape from all the problems that are coming to me.... But... I was wrong...
I really really wonder.... If i ever die..... would there even be people who would care about me? Would there be people to notice that i'm not around anymore?
i'm nothing without you.
Is the world changing or is it just only me changing? I'm feeling very very uncomfortable. I don't like the way things are now.
i'm nothing without you.
Saturday, July 17, 2010 ; 9:49 AM
It's been on my mind for a while, Gotta get it off my chest. Before it's too late.
When our eyes first met, You smiled a familiar smile, As if you know me, Making me stop in my tracks. It was only a fleeting moment, But I remember how I felt at that moment. I am afraid that I won’t see you again, I look back to catch a glimpse of you. You are getting farther and farther away.
If we pass by each other on the street, Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to. If you keep thinking about our past memories, I might go look for you secretly.
Please be happy with him, So that I can forget you. Please forget how miserable I looked. It’s going to be unbearably hard for me, For a long while to come......
i'm nothing without you.
Saturday, July 10, 2010 ; 7:36 PM
Ever since i came back to Singapore from China.... So many things have happened.... I really don't know how to live my own life anymore..... Everyday, i have to put on a disguise.... everyday i have to act as a happy person...which in fact, my heart is all filled with sadness and sorrows....There are so many things that i have to ponder about.... Every single thing is affecting me... My life...My studies...It's all been affected..... Why must things like this happen when i wasn't around.... I really felt very guilty...While I'm enjoying my stay in China.... There are people in Singapore suffering.... I shouldn't have left.... I shouldn't have left Singapore for the sake of personal enjoyment..... I should have think for others and care about them....I shouldn't have been so selfish.... Looks like everything that i didn't expect to happened had happened....
To
you,I guess... you might not know that i have been liking you for a long time.... I guess it was really impossible for me to be with you... What i have with you is enough... I don't think we can go on anymore.... That was the limit.... I have hinted so much just to let you know... But it looks like you didn't get the hint... Only a few people know that you're the one i love... I'm gonna let that feeling of mine for you to go..... I can't hold it on any longer... It's fading... Go on and find your own happiness....
I wonder how will it turn out in future....
I wonder how will it affects me....
I wonder how will it change me.....
I wonder....
This isn't the life i wanted... This isn't what i had before....
i'm nothing without you.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010 ; 8:24 AM
Hello. Looks like after school reopens, i seldom blog alrd. Guess i was busy preparing stuffs for my Os. Anyway, i have just heard of Taeyang's new album released, SOLAR. It was released on 1st July. I had listened to his new songs and they were awesome!!! Some even made me wanna DANCE!!!
i'm nothing without you.
Friday, July 2, 2010 ; 8:42 AM
Hello!!! Just came back from 45th Anniversary. It was totally fun!!! I love it. I love sitting with my classes. The food wasn't that bad. The show, hardly get to see it because the live feed wasn't very clear. But i guess it's a good show though. Took lots of pictures today, of course not with my phone. I just uploaded whatever i have to facebook. It was really fun sitting with the boys. We chat alot, insulted and laughed at each other alot. It was a great night. Alright, i guess i'm tired alrd. Bye!
i'm nothing without you.
