Tuesday, July 20, 2010 ; 3:39 AM
What's coming up next? Family also like that.... friends also like that.... What's with everybody? Or is it just me? I already have so much things in my heart... So much troubles.... Yet more and more troubles are piling in... I can't settle all these problems.... There aren't anyone to help me out... I'm all ALONE. Everyday is just almost the same... I have to go face people that i don't like... I have to endure all the insults.... I have to hold back... I can't resist back at all.... My anger is just growing and growing each day... I can't find a way to let it off without hurting others.... There's no one that can help me.... No one really cares about what happens to me.... This morning i was playing with my friend and he slipped and fall... It wasn't on purpose... but yet my friends all blame me for it.... They way they said was like i did it on purpose... They don't trust me at all.... No matter how i explain to them... they just won't believe.... I really got a question to ask them..... Who am i to you all? a friend of yours? your enemy? a stranger? or a toy that lets you do whatever you like... I really don't know what to do now.... My life wasn't like this before... I always thought school would be a place where i can escape from all the problems that are coming to me.... But... I was wrong...
I really really wonder.... If i ever die..... would there even be people who would care about me? Would there be people to notice that i'm not around anymore?
i'm nothing without you.
